Illimitable

2004. 02. 29

Public exams results announced, officially declared death. I gained perfect score on english(15/15), 14/15 on science and social science, 13/15 on chinese, but tripped on mathematics (12/15). With a 68/75 for total would likely to bring me anywhere except the top three university, the ones I want. Guess I should be responsible for my math score. *shrug* Now will have to take the July exams, as most students.

Unlike preparing for IBO, two days before public exams I could hardly concentrate. Hardly could it convince me that such a procedure is necessary for entering university. I was lost, have no feeling neither on the subjects nor my aim. For a moment I did not know if I were verily aiming at NTHU Life Science. Even now, twenty days after the exams, I still remain uncertain. Things would be much easier if I were applying for U of Cambridge. Cambridge provides much wider curricula and does not required to choose specific major before entering. On the other hand, biology major can be seen quite often among the universities, but none of them have curricula that cover through all areas in biology. Instead, they tend to have biology major lean towards a certain area, such as zoology or botany, while calling themselves Life Science with no Biochemistry nor physics. NTHU is more concentrate on biochemistry and genetics, but less zoology, botany, and entomology. One of the imperfection of life, sigh. My uncle strongly suggests I give a try on medical school. No way I would stay in one place for 7 years with a bunch of classmates who want nothing but earning money. Thanks to the leftovers of Japanese's governance fifty years ago, people go to medical school because they get high scores on public exams rather than devoted to patients. No, I am clever enough not to put myself into jail.

Fatality ordained 2004 the year of struggling. Careful contemplation is unavoidable. Perhaps I would eventually make a different decision. Who knows. At the moment I still care more for IBO trial semifinals more than anything. Hope I could make it to top 30. *grin*

2004. 02. 13

Public exams finished, last semester started. I WANT VACATION! So unfortunate, the semester happened to start on my 18th birthday. Argh... right, how cheerful that is. (20 minutes later...) At first I thought I was going to complain, but right after written the first line, I cannot think of anything to write at all. Strange. No complaint, okay.

2004. 02. 03

Two days left. And here you can see exactly how I feel with my lousy drawing on the right. By the way, just for your reference, the amount of books I have read this winter vacation is more than that I drew. Now you know why I hate public exams?